Day 5 to Day 9

Ok, so last Thursday I quit smoking cold turkey coming from a high of 1.5 packs/day for the last 5 years. I am still in the clear aka I have not fucked up yet but I’ve was just been too busy to document it. So, since I slacked off this past week on writing I will summarize here what happened.

For Day 5 I wrote “Debunking the Myths Part I” because it truly feels like the information out there is a bit misleading. I also made sure that day that I got my “adrenaline shot” by having a fight with my other half. It was bad but interestingly enough it didn’t make me want to go buy a pack..or a carton.

Day 6, 7 and 8 I experienced an average of 1-2 cravings a day but this time they were different. I wanted to taste a cigarette and was working hard to convince myself that just one puff will not ruin everything. At work I was stuck on the same problem for all three days and to my complete amazement the problem turned out to be completely fictional. This made me rethink posting that I was getting my clarity back. During these days I started getting really down about the gaining weight and the cough. I came up with the brilliant idea of getting my tonsils taken out-which would obviously take care of both issues (at least thats how I rationalized).

Day 9, which was yesterday, I experienced acute anger control issues and blew up like a overinflated balloon. Here’s a piece of advice. Avoid these situations because it’s hard as hell to make up for them to people you care for. Especially when the anger is close to irrational.

Last night we had friends over. Also present was good food and lots of alcohol. I noticed I drink much less now (I’m not consciously trying) and I get drunk faster. Which is good I guess.

So how hard was it without a smoke? It was and it wasn’t. What’s really weird is that now my only reasoning for wanting to smoke is being bored. It’s much easier to resist “I’m bored ” than “I’m gonna fucking die if I don’t have one right this second”.

So it’s definitely getting easier.

Tip of the day: At the end of each day of victory put aside the money you would have spend on cigarettes that day. My plan is to do it for the amount of years I smoked, meaning 5. In 5 years I’m gonna buy the biggest plasma tv there is (or so I like to believe). Either way, it makes me smile.